Mne bi v nebo

Inspired by the stupid russian song - it's hard to translate it's name into english (for me), but the main idea is the desire of alcoholic to be nearer the death, because he never seen the "sky" ( - meaning some upper world above us), and he wants to see it so much. He's getting closer and closer to death using the power of gradual alcohol poisoning as his own preferable method.
This song is very stupid, but very famous in our countries. Don't know how, it's really touched my heart